It seems as if I've had way too many bad days, more than good for a while. You just know your day will turn out shitty when you're about to leave the house and your dog just pissed everywhere and you have to clean it up. Then shortly after that, your kid takes a dump and you have to change his diaper even when you just changed it before leaving the house. Then you get on the road and there's soooooooooo much traffic and with the thought of how you're gonna quietly creep to your desk without the boss knowing is running through your mind. You get cut off by the stupidest drivers or the slow ones that create a pocket so you can be trapped all the way to work. You finally get to your desk and you're 15 minutes late. Bam!!! Your phone goes off and it's a nasty text message of how much hatred this person has for you and how they wished they can kick you even when you're down. Can your day get any worse? Of course it can!!!! Although so many things can mess up your day, it's totally up to you on how to move forward and change the negativity that has branded your morning.
Well, I've learned that I can control how the rest of my day can play out. I can't change what's going to happen to me, but I can change my attitude on things. I do believe in laws of attraction. You get what you exude. I've had many bad days, but at the end of the day, I came out ok. Sure, it could have been an awful day and one that you wished never happened, but that's life as Frank Sinatra would say. You get what you put up with. I can choose to be upset about every bad thing that has happened to me during the day, but will that make my day any better? Nope! Will it satisfy the person with the mean text if I choose to let them get to me? Yes! Do I want that? No! We want to be as positive as we can be! The best revenge is the good life!
Now, I know that this is easier said than done because I've had many bad days and what I would give to run someone over and beat the shit out of the person who has the audacity to send me dumb shit via text because they're not grown enough to tell it to my face in an adult manner. *Exhale* I remind myself to be the bigger person and that there will be a pot of gold at the end of my storm when the rainbow appears. Why is it that my storm hasn't passed? This is the question I constantly ask myself. Why do I have so many bad days? Why do other people who don't deserve their good days always have them? There's gotta be a plan...some sort of reasoning behind this story God has played out for me.
Even though I feel like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders with being a single mom and playing both mom and dad, trying to be a great asset in my job that is slowly sinking and putting up with all the unnecessary shit in my life, I know my life can be so much worse. There are other people out there who are suffering who would love to trade places with me any day. At the end of the day, I came out alive and I have my son. I have to live for my son. I have to enrich his life with all good things and show him that I'm here to be strong for both of us. I've sacrificed for both of us. For us to be happy and grow together and for him to be healthy and have a good upbringing.
Life will always have its struggles and I do hope that someday that pot of gold will shine bright for me. I am very thankful for each day and for each day I get to kiss and hold my son. Nothing can stop me from being the best mom I can be and the best person I can try to be for myself. I know this weight will eventually get lighter. Until then, I must learn to accept and move on and to change my attitude on things. Pain will only cut as deep as you let it. Well, this tough skin has to thicken up for sure. How do you handle your bad days? Comment me!
